Apologize

First off all, maybe its too late to apologize

Its really unforgiven and I should know that

Its really my fault and only be my fault

To be a cheater and take on advantage on friends

To create such an awkward and horrible atmosphere

To cheat on friends' money and the 'house' of sarang tikus

But "she take your money on purpose" is not true

Its all the way my fault

My $10,000 Goals!

In my head right now, right away..

Have no interest in my study anymore..

I'm just slowly lost my enthusiasm towards my studies..

Currently "The Plan of Getting into Traveling" stuck into my mind..

Then my first goals is to run my strategies to come for $10,000
$10,000!
$10,000!
$10,000!

Can I begin with 10 coins?

I think 10 coins got very much value to begin with..

Fufufu...(it sound ridiculous but, recently I ride a bus, then when I'm arrived at the place and

was about to walk out from the bus, accidentally I dropped a coin..the bus driver noticed it and I

have no interest to search for them and just to ignore it..then the bus driver seem not satisfied

and called me to pick them up..then I take my time to look for that coin and surprisingly the bus

drive seem to patiently wait for me..I think its quite a couples minutes though..huh!)

Jitsu Wo Boku?

It never cross in my mind that I'm posting..

JITSU WA BOKU..

Actually I..
Its really empty ne..I feeling empty,, I do not know why..But it is exist really, even though I have no idea how to explain it..neither how to get rid of it nor to tell anybody about it..

I was really okay, well enough..as what I am really look like, but it was fake..I want to tell somebody I am not well enough..I want to scream out & lets all my tears go..

Something,somebody really dragging me into suffocating worriness , I could not help my self to take a little bit courage to share it with others..the silence of me, is really dreadful..

Scare of myself, that what really I am about..Its me, have anybody feeling really scare suddenly. Sometime its really terrify me enough to speak or swallow the food..my feet and hand feeling cold suddenly..I feel I am really nothing then..

I Love Japan &…

To kill the time..
I did sketched this..
Quite weird, as..
I’m just trying out..
To figure..the right images..
Suddenly this came out!
What’s that??
Nan desuka??

New Posting

First of all,otanjobi omedeto to Ain chann!

the Evening

I spend a night outside..
feel nice to see the person..
the evening scenery..
but bad enough to hear the news..

to think a lot..but have no points..
I'm a bit mess..some kind of things makes my wonder grows!
One days..I got to release all the crazy stuffs out of my mind!
Its sank into my heart..just try to live with it..

Too Much to Bear

Lately a lot happen..
I'm not a person who like to tell a lot who I am
Just to think the past is really the past..
Losing something recently give me heart broke..
But I've experience the greater "Losing"
It has kill me..
I'm trying to survive..there I'm going



To the "additional" im answering:
The tears is nothing..nothing to describe it..
I can smile..eat..breath
So I am very well..I guess
You're a good listeners I believe..
But I'm not a good talker..
I just can't describe it..perhaps I lost the words
Just to forget it>>Be Happy!

welcome Back!!!

moshi moshi..
long time no blogging..
dun have any reason instead of that..