A day to fill-in~

 

Um. Just wake-up in the morning. And regret why would not I slept earlier.

 

Just felt not enough sleep yet.

Still dreamy..

Wish I can choose the item to be included in “A day Filling”.

Like you can choose the filling item in your onigiri.

 

Just felt like long day to go today.     

With dizzy head..afraid of cold water in the morning~ ( __  __ ) zz

 

Ah, luckily not too busy today.

I can survive this work today. Yaa! 

 

Demo..

Today, I’ve been called to HR department.

First, Typhoid Jab.

Second, Show Cause Letter. I have to write explanation letter of my lateness to work.

Lateness..Three days continuously.

Haha~

 

Oh. Typhoid Jab. My last typhoid is around July 2007. Typhoid period is not more than 3 years.

So, I just have to take one more by the period. Uh. Kowai na.. \\( # 0 # )

No one to accompany me, and trying to be brave myself over a needle.

Uhuk~

 

No pain, just little shock it been done quickly~ Huu ^ ^

 

On my way back home, after the “brave scene” of me. Just feeling wanted to improve my reading list.

So long time didn’t read any manga after the Maid Maiden “Tuesday”. Read at Popular or MPH ?

Uh.. Which is it? Not so sure myself which one.

 

It’s too cold there. Feel frozen although just finish two Manga.

To console my heart over an injection.. Some tidbits is definitely doing me so much favor~

 

More over when it come to some sort Japan’s Tidbit~

Frankly, run-out budget now.

Dakara..just having the cheapest thing..

 

1. Biscuit Snack with Creamy Mango Dip.

Just not really nice to my tongue. If I had choose the other flavor such as Chocolate Hazelnut Dip, it might be better..

 

And because of the “Very Limited Budget”..

The tag price $0.99 attract my attention. No matter what is the snack, I want grab it~

That is reffered to~

2. Sesame Stick Cracker

Haha..In a second I just already finish it.

 

The last one, I only could afford by today is so considered as Japan Ramen maybe?

 

3. Cup Noodles

Just thought I’ve seen this somewhere..

Cup Noodles with Chilli Crab flavor.

When I’m come home from work starving & need food…

Surely will looking for this~

Uhu..^ ^

 

Forgot something..

New Name Sticker~

Myehunn~~

It’s transparent.. Wuh, should combine my name & Massu ne? Any idea?

Uh~

My arm started to react over the Typhoid..

Just now feel weird with my arm. Kind of heavy & hurt~

 

Uhu..

Oyasumi~

~ Soundless Sleep..

Today, Sunday, 24th October 2010.

And I’m not working on this day!

 

Wuh, just wonder is there somewhere I would like to go.

Actually, just not ‘feeling very well’..

Just really feel…

 

Bad..

 

Starts from the day of Saturday..

It’s worsen, more..

 

Finally, she is married. My little sister.

I had no present for her.

One day before I went back, just make decision. No gift.

Just don’t want to mention the marriage again.

And how am I behave there.

 

I only stay home for about not more than six hours.

Not more or less.

Uh.

 

I knew that it is not right thing to do.

But, where the hell, the comforts of being at home had gone?

I just wanted to run away..

 

I feel guilty as I didn’t stay home a little more longer.

I should spend a night there at least.

 

Yep. A night. Why would not I ?

Just wonder until now. Perhaps, that not a good children I am now.

Who’s on the earth that will leave their parents?

It’s just happen to be me now~

An akuma me~

 

After about six month haven’t met my mother.

I’m in tears.

Finally, she is there. In front of me.

Just so taihen, for not crying in front of her.

But, I just couldn’t make myself to hug her.

So bad, me again.

 

Just remembered, her last cooks for me.

Long time had passed..

Frankly, I missed it so much~

 

After, handed the salary that I earned & the kitchen utensil I bought from IKEA.

I left.

And ride the train back.

 

So..

I just so in tears..

Flooded with my own tears..

 

Somebody just text me..

She just back from “Retail Therapy”..

 

Therapy?

I wanted a therapy also.

In case, it can help me to slow down the “flood”.

 

So, ride the monorail to Times Sq..

 

In every ways to find therapy..

Just found nothing..

Exhausted..

Hungry..

and

nothing to amuse me~

 

Found nothing to bring me..any joy

 

..

Until Sunday I begin to recover..

 

By the soundless sleep..

The Tiredness..

The Back Pain..

The “Flood”..

 

Wants to get rid of them..

 

 

Soundless sleep..

 

As I need them..

~

 

Just feel better when my mother handed me some food to brought back..

Yaah!

It feel nice when have mother to give you some food ne~

..

I can just recover with the foods she gave me~

 

Today..

I eat the “ Rendang” she give as my breakfast, lunch & dinner.

It’s just quite a lot.

And I want to finish it by myself only. No sharing.

 

Later then,

I just managed to text her,

I want to go back next month & expecting her cooks for me.

 

Um..

I want to sleep with her.

Laying myself beside her. Missed to be near her.

 

I could not stop my tears when writing this post.

Such emotional me.

And acting like a little child.

I just wish I’m still a little child.

My age can’t help me to be a grown-up girl.

 

 

Sore kara~

To stop this emo.

Ja na..

Want to eat the “Rendang” once again.

Even, it’s already 10pm now & it considered as dinner time for me~

I’ll make sure the Rendang will be finished now..

~Yummy..

 

Fully recovered~~ Myehunn

( ^ _ ^ ) V

Doukeshi-o minasai !

Doukeshi-o minasai!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I had never have a problem with a clown before.

As I never met them face to face.

We had function of a hundred pax for Birthday Party & had no idea that a clown will exist.

Uh.

Just a little bit shocked when the clown suddenly approached me.

Shocked.

With bunch of red hair, white face, big nose, big mouth & colorful cloths.

The Clown try to give me the used glass, even I already make signal just to put it on the bar counter.

Why have to trouble the clown. Uh.

Why must I be near to them.

Uh.

Then I just understand why Ain-Chan do not like them.

Just kowai ii ne.

They make kawaii balloon & cheer-up the kids.

Should be grateful having them around.

But the fact is, I’m just not comfortable enough.

So, I ask my supervisor to transfer me to Lobby Bar.

Yokatta, I am transferred.

Hajimete ne~ Just shocked.

Next time, I’ll greet the Mr Doukeshi.

Mr Doukeshi, Hajimemashite~ Myehunn desu, dozo yoroshiku.

One day.

Hopefully.

Uh. Just tired now. Finish work at twelve & arrived home at one o’clock in the morning.

Work morning shift tomorrow~

Wakaranai~

Complicated schedule, only less than five hour sleep now.

Sore kara. Ja. Oyasumi.

Mr Doukeshi, Oyasumi ne.

Sweet Dream~

~ Just Ordinary works..

October 9th.

It’s quite hayai ne.

And tomorrow going to be weekend. Uh. Just don’t like weekend very much nowadays….

Sometime it quite stress me out at work.

Almost everyday busy with function & A’la  Carte. Although not high turn over eat though. But the work is kind unorganized make it’s become more tiring & complicated work.

Become a hostess, waitress, & bartender.The Daily Jobs.

Tsumaranai yo~

Wuh.

Sometime, it’s quite okay. I didn’t feel of tsumaranai.

There is a lot of trainees do their internship at F&B department. Some of them is excellent.

There is one trainees doing the intern for diploma & degree at the same hotel. Her work is very excellent & hardworking.

Well, I also like to work with her & apparently so do the manager is.

Today is her last day of intern. Her last department somehow is HR although she applied all four month at F&B.

Uhu.

So last day of seeing her. I just somehow manage to talk to the manager bout her leaving soon.

Then.

Woah, surprisingly my manager told that he offer her the captain position.

But, its already been expected. Hahaha.

I just had Nabeyaki Set & trying to search the good answer from the intern..

If u had degree the expected salary would be at RM2K ++.

She answered.

Salary is one of things need to be considered, plus when you have the loan to pay.

Diploma + Degree = RM LOAN

I like F&B more than other department & even applied all 4 month at F&B, but just given 2 & half months only.

Want go to overseas but I’ll considered on it.

Uhu.

Sou deshou, I just had my Staff Job Appraisal after 3 month working.

Still no MC at the moment but obviously I’m not punctual also.

Meanwhile, others staff had at least one MC.

The manager just think I always punctual & I immediately corrected it. Hahaha.

Always late.

Uh. Then I’ll put blame on bus.

Or overslept matter.

Wakaranai~

Wake-up at seven in the morning & work shift at eight in the morning.

Uh.

Lazy enough.

Gomen ne Massu~ For being in such attitude.

Just ordinary works.

And the tsumaranai~

 

Ja~

~More & more freaking

Just a past few weeks ago, have no interest in blogging.

Rarely on-line.

For 2 weeks straight workdays.

I’m totally exhausted.

As usual, my off & planning of going home.

Sometime, just miss the feeling of “Yokatta, I’m already at home finally.”

Just couldn’t bear miss to say those words even for once now.

But, it’s just not turned out as those words sound really.

As ever, I’m freaking..

Now..

Had to face this..

My little Sis is getting married.

Freaking of the thought, what kind of future waiting for her.

Frankly I just don’t like the whole family of the ‘jerk’.

Hate it!

It’s really annoy me all day to think bout.

I am really paranoid of my peoples.

They are not what I can see through..kowai.

Sometime, miss my mother too much.

Once ago, I have no thought of living like this.

Just like a little kids, I want her be around me all the time.

Even though now.

When the winds kind of blowing the “missing kimochi” to me even when I’m working & busy with work.

Its brought the “feeling of empty”.

As I had nothing.

Nothing.

Its just so-called as LONELYNESS maybe?

MORE FREAKING..

Because, sometimes it’s just hurt somewhere.

Tears.

 

Missing.

 

Worries.

 

Losing.

 

I’m feel quite emotional today.

 

Wish I could stand this & be strong.

 

All along this period, I just feel want to attend the Convocation which will be held on  December.

Not sure what the reason is.

Maybe, the monsoon in my head blowing into it.

 

Bout, my sister. It’s really taihen to accept the fact. I just feel wanted to get this away from my thought as far as I could.

Hate it. It’s just hurts. Nothing more. Tearing me with more pain.

Freaking me..

Uh.

 

Its already 3.00am. Had to work tomorrow.

 

Ja.

 

By the way, I’m changing new layout again. Not completely done yet. As usual, more frequent on changing layout than writing a post.

 

Feel better now~

 

Oyasumi..

~ 1MALAYSIA DAYS

Another Public Holidays?

16th September, 2010.

Wuh, 1Malaysia Days. Since I’m working today due to the strict order by F&B manager  “ No F&B staffs will be off on Public Holiday “. Yep. Just working. Demo, I also wondering what kind activities will be held on this particular days.

Just visiting the PM blog. Um, well I’m not bright enough to digest all the words inside. Seem that it’s more complicated for me to understand. Such a dull person I am.

I’m more than 20th already, maybe have to go for voting someday?

Haha.. just to do cross mark isn’t ?

Wait, have to do some consideration on who’s going the best politician?

Um..wakaranai.

Hahaha~ I’m being patriotic girls today ne.

Luckly my works isn’t busy enough today. Arrive home early than yesterday.

I just hope got double pay at least for today~

Huhu~ Pays is one of the reason for today PH  besides I’m want to feel like a good citizens although I dream to stay in other country..

Uh, bout the activities or agenda for today. Anybody knows ?

Uh.

Recently I’m not motivated to go work. Feel lazy~

Uh…

Work is definitely different from studying ne~

When you work, thinking about money more & more. And more instinct to finish up the okane in not very good way, quick & fast.

Wuh~

Shiranai..

As usual at this hour, 2 am in the morning my eyes hang already~

Run-out battery~

Wish 1Malaysia Days to all~

Although it’s sound weird. To have it come from my blog.

I even didn’t post something for National Days.

Oh, actually it was August and the busiest works month I had. Totally run-out battery even before I’m able to finish my shift. Sometime, had to work more 12 hours.

Dakara, no post ?

Haha.. I post nothing on August ? Just realize that..

Wuh~

Um.

Wakaranai~

( ^ 0 ^ ) V

Sore, Ja ne.

 

Gossip Girl~

Hotel life~

What can I expect from it ?

The title for the post today is gossip girl. So, for a bit while let me be the B type Body Gossip Girl ne.

Here the stories goes. A trainees which I thought already have a boyfriend is currently having scandal with our Bartender. Wuh, the manager keep teasing them bout these. They didn’t look fishy to me. Suddenly, they just appear with the issues.

No wonder why the trainees didn’t complaint of having to work extra-hour & willing to work on Raya days even she already on leaves. She even buy Baju Kurung on the spot because all her cloths was send for laundry. Wuh, its such a great commitment.

No matter how, I believe it’s all because a work commitment not towards her scandal. She hardworking trainees. Never complaint on tough works. I like her to be around. Huu, I take the chance to ask her to do part time after her training finish, because she refuse to work as permanent. She seem agree, Yatta!

Today, I’m just finish my shift around 1am in the morning. Since my hotel transport is only arrive at 2am. I had to wait. But still want go back early ne to post something. This one Miss A, my colleague who’s just back from Raya Leaves look exhausted since this afternoon. 

So, rather than to wait for the transport, she just call somebody I guess as her scandal would pick her up.

So, around 1am and nothing to do, I just follow her to locker room. She tad a good bye to me, apologizing having leave me alone there & can’t give a ride for me because they ride motorcycle.

Few, minutes later..

Wuh, shock me because I’m just changing my cloths & the intruders. Uh, yokatta, it’s she.

She just said they will go back by car. Ask me to come along. My heart singing of course. I can go back early. Yaa! Asking to keep quite who’s the scandal. Wuh..I keep guessing. Uh. I didn’t make the right guess. Unexpected really~

It’s a stewards. Hotel stewards. To me he look fine. Didn’t have any bad perception bout him. Very hardworking. I like his job though. He make clean & tidy works. He have cars though.

Wuh.

Work to hotel life & finally get married to collegue.. Maybe didn’t have chance to get know the outsider other than colleagues maybe.. Uh..

What a life ne…

Wakaranai~

Ends of B type Body now, I don’t want to be a gossip girl anymore~

P/s : Please make sure to keep it secret.

 

Off~Day

Since I felt as everyday working & only one day off the whole week and sometime after ten days working. I just really desperately looking for the off day.

Waiting. Waiting and waiting.

Yep.

Today, finally.

Off day & Planning.

Below shows  some sort or quite a lot of things I wanted to accomplish in just one whole day.

1. Kaimono.

2. Going back home.

3. Sleep one whole day.

4. Watching TV.

5. Do my house-cleaning.

6. Internet surfing. ( Want to download some anime..& Massu photos)

7. Open May Bank account.

8. Wash my shoes.

9. Cook some healthy & oishii dishes. ( Not only Instant Noodle or eggs..Wuh)

10. Repair my mobile.

I should spend the precious Off-Day more wisely! Yep..I know that.

It is quite wasting for me to wake-up early. Huh. That was what my mind told me when I open my eyes about 8 o’clock in the morning. Wuh, I’m sleeping until it was mid-day already. Such, a girl am I right ?

Get bath, then do washing, watching TV, eat some instant noodle, take a little nap after that..Wuh, not enough sleep yet?

Thinking of going back to my aunt house, but anyhow I just cancelled it as soon I know there is some other guest in their house. It’s because I’m just not being comfortable to be asks what I am doing now. In my opinion they has the higher curiosity on what other been doing or more known as B type Body.

Uh. Gomen ne for the statement. Quite harsh though. I just couldn’t imagine it.

Then, about the kaimono..

Well, okane some sort of the most important thing to consider. I really want to give a visit to Time Square. Haha..Recently after receive salary I’m been craving to have new bags, shoes, cloths & even skirts. Wuh, come to think about it I would at least spend $100 on a single shopping. Or more when plus to foods. Its really cram give me a second thought of it. Cost. And Cost.

I just could advise my self then. Next month ne Mye. Yup. Next month for Kaimono when receive the salary. I’ll let you have the pretty lace & frilly dress. Oh, shoes & Bags or even oshii foods also. That’s all the console words I have..Uhuk..

Uh.

No Kaimono~ T.T

I would not open my new bank account now.. Next month perhaps. Well, I just lend some okane to somebody. Since, I am working now.

I even not repair my mobile. Lazy to go out now.

Just watching TV, download anime, and do house-core.

I wish I can watch from Astro for that anime. But my work time is not in consistent shift. So, it’s better I download it. To use up the 8 gb download usage. Demo, its quite slow to download, take about 1-2hour for an episode. Wuh..

Guess how many hour I have to wait..Nanka?

I’m only download several episode at the moment.

There is one J-drama that I feel had some crush on recently..

SOTSU-UTA.

Which mean Graduation Song.

I still considering to attend  my Graduation Day or not. There is several condition that creeping in my mind now that keep my away from it.

Probably watching this Sotsu-Uta will change my mind. Who knows ne.

Perhaps..

Yes.

Perhaps..

Not.

T.T

Shiranai ne~

Actually Sotsu-Uta has 4 different stories 4 days in a row to make up this mini drama series with each story being based on a different graduation themed song. And Massu plays a lovely country boy who for some reason seems to be friends with a girl who is a bit of a self-centered wants to be radio personality in Stories 4 ("Sotsugyou Shashin" (Graduation Photo) ).

Graduation Photo~

Once in my life only maybe~

Wuh~

Am I being bothered with photo? Well, maybe not. I just missing some of them. Missing Kimochi. Haha..

I would never thought would have this kind of feeling in future when I was still in Campus life. Wuh..

It’s going to be memory ne.

Even maybe..

Wasuretai~

Wasuretakatta..

Once time ago, when I had a hard time. Feel like  subete wo wasuretai.

Wasuretai demo wasuretakunai.

Wuh..

End of OFF-DAY now~

Ja..mata ne~

 

Hanashi~

Hanashi~

One month is over and I’m completely not show-up in my blog. No post. No visit also.

There is lot of hanashi I want to post, from piano guy, College Interns Students, Money, Hunger, Cakes, falling-down, GM, Midnight Home, Bus & Pervert, Waitress to Bartender..

Uh. Then, I just straight back home instead of drag my foot to Cyber Cafe. During this Ramadhan it’s really a damn tiring works.

There is several time already I’m thinking of quitting on this job.

I guess I had to hang on there until I can find another better job. Or else when I already feet boring. Or lazy. Huh. Sometime I had to force myself to work ne. What a lazy person I am ne. At least I had never take any MC yet. Should be grateful, that I’m genki person desou ne.

The Hanashi already lame ne. Had no interest anymore.

Recently I just realize that I had problem with sleep. Uh. Sometime I can’t sleep. Yesterday night, after posting p1~Irasshaimase I can’t sleep. Although, had force my eyes to sleep..I’m still not sleeping. The whole night no sleep & work at 8.00am in the morning. Luckly, I can went back early today that is around 5.00pm. Then go for food kaimono and as soon I arrived home after climbing to 5th floor. I’m totally exhausted. I can only sleep when I am in terrible tiredness. Maybe I’m not suit myself to the schedule yet ?

Uh..

Tonight I must had a good sleep. Wuh..After what happen today. As consequence to that “sleep problem” I had to move & work every second. If not, although just standing quietly I can fall asleep without me to notice it. Had anybody been in the same condition?

Wuh..

Sleeping beauty~

Sleep~

Oyasumi nasai ^ ^

 

 

p1~ Irasshaimase!

Yokatta~

Fuh~

I had my own broadband now! Yaaa~ Instead  of  using somebody else wireless network. Finally I got my own. It’s really make me excited. Huhu. More over I bought it with my first salary. Maybe I am over exaggerating bout it.

Its been more than a month I didn’t update my blog. Some Onee-chan said my blog dusty already. Yep. Uh. Its true ne. I just realize it when I check-out some other blogs.

Woah~ Julya-chan always come out with new layout with a professional-web-look to me. Woah! It’s sugoi! Kawaii & .. Lovely ne~ With KATTUN always ~

Check-out my Broadband picture below~

Isn’t it look like an antenna ?

I hope this Broadband didn’t make such nonsense problem to me ne. Oh. Sou ne.. Actually this Broadband come with CD. After buying and walk away from the p1 Centre. Its Julya-chan suddenly make me furious with the CD installing & all. Turn back to the Centre and uttering the question. The guy just don’t understand what us trying to ask actually. Uh.

I had a net book which had no CD Drive. Uh. So, I can’t install the software needed for the broadband ne. That what we mean bout. Then, the guy next him just ask what Window you are using now? I use the Window Xp lor for my little brain of net book. He just explain needed CD for Window Vista not for my old Window. Huh~ Yokatta.

The p1 come with a little box case in black and some green color of picture. Had no picture of it ne. Gomen. Had no camera. Haha. Even the picture above I stole it from web. Uh~

Oh. I’m off today. Almost the whole day I sleep. Enough sleep already. About 12 hour.

Enough sleep but I’m still greed of it. I want to sleep more and more. Until text message coming and written “Uff. What you doin today?”

I had doing nothing. Actually planning to sleep all day. But when to think again. It will be a waste of a precious OFFDAY ! Dakara, I just think it’s the time for me to get the broadband. Right before my salary disappeared & gone by all way it can without me to notice it. Uh. Easy go & hard to obtain.

Arigatou ne Julya-chan for accompanying me. I had no clear direction of how 1u is. Make me confuse sometime. Is that p1 Centre? Hidden & small place beside Jusco back exit? Haha.

After buying broadband.. Eating time!

My stomach even singing all around waiting for Julya-chan ne. 

Finally met her and her onee-chan at MCD and planning to buy GCB. At last eating bento at some restaurant, so called Shijin. ( Shijin desou ka?I didn’t take notice what the restaurant name is or what food I’m ordered. ) Before that we stop by at a Korean Best restaurant called BBQ… I didn’t remember it either. Its just quite expensive for m. So, even we already been be seated inside the restaurant, we ran away after food prices considering. Haha..

Finally..

I arrived at my room.. pluck-in the p1 and hope everything goes well. Installing…

Installing…

Yaattaa!

This finally come-up..

Coverage Locater ?

I’m not understand much ne. Is it mean this area covered with coverage?

Sou des ka?

Uh.

Wakaranai~

Tomorow again I’ll work morning shift. Hard to wake-up ne. Hope can go back early tomorrow. Want go for food kaimono tomorrow. Raya around the corner now. Just another couple few days left and I had to work. Huu~ I don’t mind working on that day~

Uh..Its really takes long time for me to compose this post ne~

Hard to express thought in wordings nowadays..

I’ll post some of bunch of stories later ne.

Ja~

Kimochi~ sweet.. Feel easy now.. I had something to waste my time on now~

 

~ End of July and The work

July.

Yup. It finished. Yup, the salary is out already. Uh, I just keep thinking its not enough really. But  when I just think that it was only 8 hours working and compared to the work I've done and the salary, at last maybe its quite reasonable. Yup maybe. Maybe.

Next month going to be a fasting month. Uh. Its horrible for me. I'll be busy and get a pairs of eye bags  which I really hate about.

Uh.

Food from kitchen sometime is so slow ne. That the hardest part. You'll get scolded by guest. Then, smile and apologize is the thing you must do. Uhuk... I'm crying inside my heart. 

But there are some guest whom is quite good in person. They always said thanks and not to be fussy, polite, and some more very generous to give me tips. Hahaha. Daisuki yo. Even, called my name. ( Thanks Mye, this is for you. ) To hand-up the tips to me. Arigatou ne. 

Um.

Some more, when I met guest and taking their order. The most question they will ask is where I come from?

Eh. Eh, I mumbling inside my heart. I'm Malaysian. What the hell you think I am? Uh. I really don't like the question. They thought I am a Thai, or Philippine or Cambodia.

Uhuk... 

Oh, today my F&B manager do the Crepe Suzette flambe' demo to all of us. It's just keep me remind to my lecturer Mr S. He look better and smart when do the flambe' compared to my manager. Hahaha. Its something I'm proud about. Huhuhu. My lecturer is better. Hahaha. Oh, then I'm just kind of miss him and the practical class and the fellows friends. 

Actually we do have briefing everyday. But, not everyday I'm attended the briefing. Have to standby at the Terrace ne. 

Oh.

I forgot to mention the food. Yup. The Cafeteria food or staff's meals. Um, actually I'm not a very picky person when it's comes to food. So, I guess it just nice. I am a girl who love to eat. Hahaha. No wonder my weight increased nowadays. Hahaha. 

Nee..

The craves over the Korean food is not finished yet actually. Yup. I'm still strive for it. (Ne, Kira-chan, I'm already invite you over. Wakata ne, you are busy. Then I'll go hunting it some days. Julya also not confirm yet if she can go. )

Uh.

Today, I caught by flu. Uh. Feeling not really comfortable. 

Aaaak~

Tomorrow have to wake up early. I'm working for morning shift. Uh. But I'll leave early also ne.

Wonder, how many months or days more I'll stand for this job..

Quit. Yup. I'm planing into it.

Sore, Ja.

Ta Daa~ 

I’ll be a part timers~

Moshi-Moshi~

I’m really unemployed now~

And currently my cash flow isn’t very supportive now..

Dakara, a part time work may do me much goods..

Uh..

I’m  not sure if I’m up to GSA position.. (Guest Service Assistant ). Uhm…really I’m not a easy-to-mingle with peoples. I could try really, step by step ne..

Oh, gomen ne. Actually I’m just reluctantly spread the news to the peoples that keep asking what I’m going to do here at Damansara, saying that I want work at 5 star hotel at OneU. I’m still in the path of creating my goals now. Yup, I should have a goals since I was in secondary school. I admit it’s a mistake of mine. Wasting time too much on unnecessary things. Moreover, with my shyness or more accurately the lack of confident personality, I’m still unable to  track which career suits me the best.

Well~

Actually now, I am not a GSA..I am just a part timers at the TERRACE~ at Royale.

Hahaha~

I’m not sure whether it would be a decent job for a diploma holder~  Well, have to admit it was not a decent job now. But it just kind of result on a desperate condition~ Hahaha..

I’m hurried-up to HR department to attend the appointment which at 3.00 pm and I’m only arrived at 3.30 pm. Huh~

Then, Ganbatte for me at the TERRACE~

Oh.

I kind of feel uneasy people asking about my working place & the title of my position. It’s I felt like they are judging me~ Yup. Judging on how the work suits my diploma & so on. I don’t have any idea of grand-title&salary-jobs for a diploma holder~ Which I felt my family members expect me to.

For me a decent job means that you yourself must have a passion on the job. Every moment you have to like the job and put on effort on the job. Yup. Salary is must be okay also. Hahaha~

Uh.

Actually I’m a very shy person.

There is my goals there. Yup. At the moment my goals is to THROW AWAY THE SHYNESS & BUILD-UP CONFIDENCE LEVEL~

Hahaha~ I’m unable to throw away the shyness during my internship. Failed.

I should train myself in the periods of part times jobs then. Again and over again.

Wish me Best of Luck then~

CloverPOWER ON!

GANBARIMASU~

Massu~ cheer me up when I’m tired ne..

Ganbarimasu Myehunn~

 

~Lets Celebrate..Yaaa!

Happ~

PPy~

Birthhh~

Dayss~

To Youuuu~

Happy Birthday to you..

Happy Birthday to Taka-san~

Happy Birthday to you~

Lets sing in Japanese~

Haapi baasudee tsuu yuu haapi baasudee tsuu yuu...

Haapi baasudee tsu Taka-san~

Haapi baasudee tsuu yuu~

Uh~ Haha~

Ureshii~

Daisuki!

Omishiro ne Taka-san~ Celebrate with you now~ (Haha, although just in my dream now)..

My only dream to bake Taka-san a cake~ Uh.. ^ ^

Otanjoubi Omedetou ne~ Taka-san. You are a grown-up man now~ Yaaa! Um..Its Taka-san 24th birthday~ Huhu..Have a very nice 24th Birthday ne~ Ganbatte Taka-san. Haha~ Ganbatte on your career~ Take very good care of your health ne~ Um..watch what you eat, don’t easily get cold~

Once in a while please appear in my real life ne~ Onegai!

Huhu~ My only sugar bun~

Aishiterru ne~

My wishes for you on this year~

TAKA-SAN listen here~

M~ MASSU-CHAN to TAKA-SAN be happy always & take a very good care of your health ne~

A~  AI from Taka-san  fans will be increase. Yaaa! I’m still here~ For the Ai~

S~ SOLO~ Uh, maybe I’m will be a bit jealous if Taka-san not solo on this year. Um. Solo-Album is encouraged of course but please stay solo in relationship till I get the chance to meet you ne. (Uh..selfish desou ne, uhm..gomen. )

S~SMILE AWAYS~ Taka-san smiles is extraordinary~ Daisuki-yo~ Etto, uh, I hope Taka-san only smiles when you feel happy ne~ When you’re in gloomy mood, don’t force yourself to smile~ It’s mean being cruel to yourself ne, do whatever you can to express your emo-out. Cry is absolutely nothing when you are really sad…

U~Unlimited Ai~ to grow on Taka-san ne. I want to keep it in my kokoro~ (The time, the interviewer person ask about my bf~ Haha..Its slip through my head..the pic of Taka-san. )

One day, I really hope to meet Taka-san.

Huhu~

A dream to chase on~ Aitaii ne!

Humming the Ai no Uta..

Daisuki~

Taka-san Aishiteruu~

Oh.

On  3th July is my cousin birthday,  Salam~ He just turn into 7th years old. A day before Massu birthday and in different year.

Otanjoubi Omedetou to him also~ Huhu..Be a kakoi like Taka-san ne~ Haha..

Happy Birthday~Salam..

He also get a presento of his craves ne..At his age. What can be a craves things to have for a young boy like he? Can you guess?

Guess..

Guess…

Hahaha..

A bicycle~

Here is he with his shortness of height & trying to ride a bicycle so hardly. I thought this is the first time he had a bicycle without the four-wheel lor~ Seem like he going to fell down when riding the bicycle ne.. Be carefull ne~

Omedetou~

Ah, I just give he a simple presento~ Haha..Lack of okane then~

Now, its already 2am when I’m posting this post. I can’t make it sharp on twelve to wish Taka-san a birthday. Huh, the line is not so good enough until just now.

~

Anyway~

Otanjoubi Omedetou to both person I loved~

Huuu~

Lets dance~ Hahaha..

And sing Ai no Uta~

Sore, Ja~

 

~ I am a shy person

Uh.


I'm already go for job hunting & interview.


In the hospitality line ne.


Finding a place to work.


The interviewer just conclude me as a 'soft' person.


Judging whether I'm able to cope with the hotel work, work overtime, sacrifice my time (He asked whether, I would mind if then I can't spend much time with bf )..


What is my goal in this industry.


Well, my goal is...


To earn money..obviously


So I just conclude that I want to be a manager in a specific period.


It's more kind of motivate session rather than an interview session.


What I'm supposed to say in front of guest.


Some sort of that..


Um.


Actually I'm a shy person. That's the hardest things. 


Looking at my face & you will knew it.


Shyness..


Actually..


I'm would like to apologize to Julya-chan. Um..Julya-chan gomen ne. Honto ne gomen.


The trouble I'm cause you.


I'm just have no idea nowadays whether the decision of moving-out is the very right things to do.
But, I'm not regretting it.I'm just regret that it may cause you a trouble.   




...


Yours faithfully,


Mye~

♪The answer is finally there ♪

Answer..

The Answer…

The Response…

I’m put a hope there..

Then waiting, waiting & keep waiting..

For already almost a month now..

Just now, checking inbox my mails. As usual go through some Jobs Alert mails. Read-it-over & never cross in my mind to submit my application. Not interests me much though. Haha~ I’m still picky ne even in my desperate condition now.

A month before, scrolling my mind to have an idea which place I’m really want to reach besides than Nihon then. I’m thinking of a place which look pretty good & nature-based, and well..it may a bit far from city or called as isolated area. Uhm, I’m don’t really mind if it’s quite far & willing to travel. From my perception of having a place to work, I must  like or want to reach the place or kind of dream place lor. Uhm, it’s may means that the place is interesting~ that I’m able to like working there.

There is. Yup. For my Hospitality career. I’m begin strive for the work related & the place I’m crave to reach & kind of having dreams to work there.

So, I’m begin to submit my application through emails & start composing those words to keep them interested with me, then there is also my own resume with pdf format which I think is more neat than  Microsoft words format uploaded for their management reviews.

Then..

After sending those emails..

I’m starting counts the hours, the times..

To have the response from the management organization..

After week by week goes without response, I’m had already give-up on that organization..

without knowing I’ll get the response, I’m planning to move-out, to start a new life at PJ, to find a work there, and even already accepted by the house owner to rent the room. I’m already conforms to the house owner that I’ll move-in & no cancellation..since she a bit worry if I’m kind of cancel it as she already give me chance even there is other person want to rent it too.

Uh..

Actually I really want to have my career there~

But it’s over my expectation now~

The time is really wrong~

The organization should inform me earlier~

Yup. Earlier..

Uh..

Now~

I’m feeling~

I should give-up on that Organization ne~

It’s I should move on & starts other jobs.. The Organization’s management just offer Front Desk Assistant  for me & which I have no idea also if I can be a front desk staffs.. Or get offered the job if I go for interview then..

But I had already the Yakusoku..to the owner.

Uh..

Well..

Here is the reply I received..

Which I think is too late..

Read over there..

The Organization which I’m looking for to find a work ~

Instead of the hotel at the midst of city  like S-LA  at Jln Sultan Ismail..

But I’m give-up already on that~

…

Both the Organizations~

Uh..

Disappointed~

Uhm..

Then..

I’ll  talks later..

Bai~Bai..

Chotto Matte~ As I found-out from J-chan no blog.. It’s Ain-san Birthday on 28th June~

Ain-san Otanjobi Omedetou~ Happy Birthday..

Haha~ Ain-san grew older now.. In fact I’m a little bit more old than she is..Yaaa! Ganbarre~      To all of us!

Uhm..

Ja~

 

♪ Kibou no Kakera ~ ♪

Uhu~

Kibou~ on the land  where the sun rises. Nihon desou yo? Nope..Uh, I hope it was, Nihon desou.

Ima, I’m really hope that everything will be fine. For these few days, I’m been worried ne~

Uh, at  the thought of mine. I’m a person of pessimistic and the current thought of mine on negative things. I want to wipe-out all the negative thinking and led to a new sekai.  I may will move out in nearer period. Uh, honestly I’m worried..

Shinpai Shinaide~

Mye-Chan Ganbarre !

I always tell myself..

Ganbarimasu!

Ganbatte~

Honestly I didn’t tell anybody in my family yet that I’m moving-out~

Yup. Not yet..

But I’m really sure nobody will object my decision..

A decision to stay with hoteliers. Yup, as Julya-chan mentioned in her blog. The house owner is a hotelier their selves. They seem nice on the base.. It’s I’m been worried bout. 

~Daijobou desu~

I also told myself so many-many time already.

They also offered me to do part time at their hotels. Maybe in future, I am also a hotelier ? In spite of my complaint about the “no-use” of diploma & the three years waste..

I also can’t led the way I am now also~

It’s really a ‘Kibou’ I want there~

I’m not able to describe the mean of ‘Kibou’ in my perception now..

But I’m not into Akuma in future, at least that was my ‘Kibou’ now, tomorrow & always. I want to be free of ‘Akuma’.

Yaaa~

Ganbarimasu!

It’s still a ‘worries’ deep inside me~

Although those abundance of supports words from myself~  

Yep..

I can do it!

Uh..

Kibou no Kakera~

Be-happy~

+++++++++++++++++++++++~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~++++++++++++++++++++

Bai~Bai..

I feel like Maruko-chan tad a bye to Tama-chan when say Bye Bye to Julya-chan that days..Hahaha~

Uhu..

Mada~mada..