My $10,000 Goals!

In my head right now, right away..

Have no interest in my study anymore..

I'm just slowly lost my enthusiasm towards my studies..

Currently "The Plan of Getting into Traveling" stuck into my mind..

Then my first goals is to run my strategies to come for $10,000
$10,000!
$10,000!
$10,000!

Can I begin with 10 coins?

I think 10 coins got very much value to begin with..

Fufufu...(it sound ridiculous but, recently I ride a bus, then when I'm arrived at the place and

was about to walk out from the bus, accidentally I dropped a coin..the bus driver noticed it and I

have no interest to search for them and just to ignore it..then the bus driver seem not satisfied

and called me to pick them up..then I take my time to look for that coin and surprisingly the bus

drive seem to patiently wait for me..I think its quite a couples minutes though..huh!)

Jitsu Wo Boku?

It never cross in my mind that I'm posting..

JITSU WA BOKU..

Actually I..
Its really empty ne..I feeling empty,, I do not know why..But it is exist really, even though I have no idea how to explain it..neither how to get rid of it nor to tell anybody about it..

I was really okay, well enough..as what I am really look like, but it was fake..I want to tell somebody I am not well enough..I want to scream out & lets all my tears go..

Something,somebody really dragging me into suffocating worriness , I could not help my self to take a little bit courage to share it with others..the silence of me, is really dreadful..

Scare of myself, that what really I am about..Its me, have anybody feeling really scare suddenly. Sometime its really terrify me enough to speak or swallow the food..my feet and hand feeling cold suddenly..I feel I am really nothing then..